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September 11th, 2013

Originally published at Faith Seeking Understanding. You can comment here or there.

lord make meTwelve years ago today I went to half-deserted classes, wondering vaguely why everyone was missing, getting nervous at the reservists running around in uniforms and clearly not quite sure what to do with themselves. I finally heard what had happened after lunch and spent the afternoon at the campus ministry building, not because I was particularly upset but because I figured people who were upset would go there and maybe I could lend an ear or a hug to someone who needed it.

Really, it can be incredibly odd to think that the defining moment left you feeling blah. I knew I should be angry or sad, but mostly because other people were. And to my great shame, I actually cheered on when we invaded Iraq, because it seemed like the best way to make those people who were upset that I knew feel safe again. It was exciting. And I was nineteen.

A little over five years ago I moved to New York and made friends with my neighbors, people whose home was attacked that day. I got to know the survivors and saw the way 9/11 has impacted my adopted home. So these days I have stronger feelings, but they’re more connected to later points built around 9/11, and my own growing pacifism and trying to live with the question of why civilians dying from planes flown into in towers was worse than civilians dying from drone attacks in Yemen, except for maybe the scale. I’m not saying they are the same, but living with that question has been a paradigm shift in many different ways. So much so that anything I could say on this subject seems utterly insufficient at the moment. Maybe I’m not the wordsmith I try to be, or maybe this is just one of those moments where we need to be rather than say or do, at least for a moment.

In lieu of deep thoughts, I hope you’ll accept a prayer from St. Anselm I’ve been thinking about lately. I’m not sure how interesting this will be to non-Christians or non-theists, but maybe it will speak to us all and the need to love our enemies. It seems particularly relevant today. So if you’ll indulge a philosopher-mystic-old soul…

(A little mood music from House.)

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